friendship – What you left me with

My Big Loves

You are my biggest love. You shaped me the most and we built our lives around each other. I’m more me because I had you. I think the biggest thing you ever gave me was a challenge, you were the best at making me see other points of view. You introduced me to new andContinue reading “My Big Loves”

Who Was I Living With?

I decided it was time to delete the secrets from your computer and phone. That I try and move past the betrayal. Before I did I couldn’t help but take one more look around and that’s when I found it. The darkest thing yet. You went on a fetish dating site. You used the detailsContinue reading “Who Was I Living With?”

Everyone else’s needs

They lost you too and they lost me with you. I try to remember that, I try to remember their guilt, they used to listen to me talk about your health, our issues, some of them begged me to leave for my own sanity. Some of them are the only people who saw you butContinue reading “Everyone else’s needs”

Expectations

Everyone wants me to go on living without you. They expect me to get up on my feet and move like you haven’t left me. They think it will help. He described it best to me, my widowed friend, ‘I just want to stop everyone in the street and tell them my wife died’ IContinue reading “Expectations”